chasing places

This has been a huge change to me... change and an giant remake of my place... i do really wish this could be faster, but all process takes time. I finally could make it to afford the makeover that i've been dream on, yes, was a big effort, yes, my family is helping me in some way and i'm so grateful with all of them, yes, i finally could find someone that can help me to make this changes and he is so honest working on it, cuz is a big hard work, yes, i earned a lot, taking several jobs to do this makeover and i'm so thankful with all the people that help me in several ways... but in the mean time, i'm still here, busy as bee, working on my paintings, on my classes and taking jobs in between... wish me luck and all the best, i'm still doing what i can and keeping my way to get the art studio of my dreams...luv you people!

 

knock knock...

 Guess i haven't been busy around here... but trust me, i've been quite busy lately! between classes, handling job and art projects... (but at least i've been doing great and having fun too... stressed too but still, has been fun around...) 
news? museums are still my kind of thing to visit... more news? new paintings at my studio of course.... more and more news? traveling this year like i always wanted! and that's a good thing for this fondly routine breaker person of me... like, i wish i do really wish to travel often even when i go back tired but what can i say folks? travel is a refresh to me! breath new air and scents on the roads and cities! eat and try new food around (don't care if i get sick on my stomach...) 
This year was such a nice thing to visit México city, between you and me it wasn't my kind of city... wasn't is the key word... is now for me... walking around in the downtown area, take the subway and praying deeply to not been there if there's an earthquake... God only know how scary could be that...
So, i'll share some of my fav photos that i took there... thank you year 2023 to let me stay busy, working and traveling in things that i totally adore!

home is...

 almost two years since covid started, life changed us in different ways, i feel like i've been learning a lot and still a way to go to stay learning, caring, loving, teaching, helping, changing, healing in so many ways
Two years and so and i feel so grateful for a lot of things, for my mom and dad, my family, friends, work, health and home..
i'm growing and learning and also makes me feel so overwhelmed, new places, new people and situations but i feel so lucky to have a home to come back... 
home is a refugee, a place to rebuilt myself, a cozy area to growth so i'm gonna fill it up with joy, love, happiness and gratitud

soon i'll move

 There is a place that waits for me... There is a place i've been working on for it... There is a place that be back alive again... There is a place where i'll be work on... There is a place that will be a refugee... There is a place where soon i'll call home...
I've been working quite hard this last 5 years and soon i'll see some reward... my parents helps me a lot but the effort and hard work is done by me.. i just bought a place... is still in progress, i couldn't do it without them, i couldn't do it without my siblings, i couldn't do it without my friends...
Almost 4 years ago, after been kicked out from a place, literally to the street, i went back to my parents house, dealing with depression, low selfsteem and heartbroken i put a goal (was several goals actually) 
Rebuilding myself is one of the hardest work i have ever been doing... so wish me luck, wish me the best, send good vibes, and send love because i already started...

almost a year...

It's almost a year since this pandemic situation is testing some skills and feelings, like if we can stay at home, living along with family, partners, roommates or so... How long we stand each other, or how long we can stand ourselves... is been hard if you are the social type that get along with everybody and now you've got to stay away to avoid contact or infection.. it also makes me thing to value simple things in our places, to also see that some "needs" are not really a needs, like making compulsive purchases of trendy clothes...
What i miss now is just nothing to do about buying things, i miss friends and family, i value my home, my family and friends and my health, i miss to travel, hanging out with friends, i miss hugs...
What we say with friends: we were happy and we didn't knew it... 
stay at home and stay healthy

 

a Farewell

So i guess all this social distance and the pandemic situation put me kinda in a sensitive mood, times don't move slow although some days it feels like it goes faster than ever. I adopted Lenteja (Lentil) when was just a puppy, my parents refused for several reason but have you seen those bright eyes?!. Dad had a partner to take a nap, Mom had her for a excuse for short walks in the streets. Lenteja had a very nervous personality but she was always feel relax in our company. Was a very difficult decision to say her good bye, she was ill and had arthritis in her hips and legs, i feel so bad to see her struggle... please please cuddle your pet, share moments and they always gonna be the best company and partner you'll ever had!

 

days out...

I wish i could go out more often... like really more often... vacations and travel is always a gooood idea! like great idea! just gonna cross my fingers and wish that... had some days off from my job so i went in a familiar trip to BCS and it was great... i had a sun tan, beer, seafood, plenty relax and great time with my family... i really need that so often... but lately i've been so busy... got two jobs, many personal projects and tons of paintings to do... so is like i guess i've got just schedule and just planning my time .... 

still, cross my fingers... i wish i could go travel more often!

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i wish i could express way much better what i feel, my thoughts... i wish that i can keep still and strong... i wish i can hold some emotions better than other... i wish i could write down my emotions... i wish i could put it down in poetry... but that will be not me.... i guess i was avoiding to write here for so long... there was a reason, a strong reason...

March month was a hard, difficult month... was a month that gather my family together... that also makes me realize the value of the presence or absence of people...

time won't back, neither time or people... lately i feel so attached to sunsets and sunrises... i'll keep the best of it...

thanks for reading..

custom...

a year ago my brother asked me if i could make a paint for him and his husband... both are disney fans... my brother asked to my brother-in-law to married him in front of the Disneyland castle... it was so emotive in so many reasons, so this painting is so symbol of many things for both... although... i haven't finished yet!... (hush! don't tell him..!!) i dunno much how to finish it, in some way i kinda know but to be sincere and to me it really need more details (i'm so obsessed with it..) what else should i put? i do really know wha, i can't tell you but is a surprise... i only hope that they like it and keep them as a memoir of their love and affection from me to them... 

holidays....

i could lie if i told you that i can't remember when was the last time that i went to Isla Mujeres... but actually i do remember, it was just sibling trip, hanging out in the beach and we had a very badly sun burn here, the town was so changed since that last time... so i went back with my family and kiddos, to spend some days there, and well yes, nothing was the same but the beach and the waves was pretty the same... a wonderful nature! weather was perfect, everyday we were checking weather news and although it could be rainy and cloudy but it wasn't at all..
My nephews and nieces are bigger and gorgeous and well, what can i say about that... is just life! i would love to go back, i would love to travel more often and have this great time, forget all my problems and living life like that.... i just wish that...

the camera...

it comes with the time when stared to value the company, the persons, the moments... and i guess we appreciate it when lost someone loved, we became to revalue all this precious things instead other that may pass to other order or so...
as the year stared, i lost one of my aunts, she kept a lot of thing around her that make her feel comfortable, things that remind her husband and the happy moment she had with him... i know is hard to start something when loss your soulmate and your partner of life, but keeping things around would not bring them back to life, is like she was trying to keep her memory with him, i feel so sorry about her loss... when i was younger (and immature tho) i thought that was absurd to keep all this things around her instead of enjoying what she got in life, like her sister and brother, nieces and nephews but now, i guess i thing different, guess with my kindness, she didn't want to get rid of all this things, she want it to keep them close to her to remember not to forget the one she loved...
now all her belongs are in other hands, some are bringing joy to other people or merely doing the job of what they initial are for
some of this stuff are now in my etsy shop, i'm pretty sure she kept it with care and trying to keep the memory of the one she loved
one of this objects are a camera, full functional, with a film on it, should i took photos and capture moments of joy or just keep it as a something that was bringing joy?? can't decide yet...

the birthday girl..

 My niece had her birthday party... she is already 5 years old...  i feel terrible old right now! she was my baby girl!! i totally remember her first words, her first tantrums and when she was walking and now... sigh!... she had a little party with aunts and uncles and a unicorn piñata that my mom got for her, she was so happy! even the dog participate to destroy the piñata...

weekends are for...

My sister had a great idea for this past weekend, she decided to envite a friend, my mom and i for spending the sunday just sewing... so my nephews went their grandma otherwise we couldn't work in our projects...
I should do something like this more often! not so long ago, a friend and i was trying to catch up for spend a day just embroidering, although he is kinda busy, but well, we haven't meet but we still want to work on that...
So the sunday was just sewing, talking, drinking plenty coffee and just having a great time. I couldn't finish my quilt, to be sincere, i stared the quilt like almost 2 years ago, i designed the pattern with some scraps that my sister gave me.
I knew that it was not gonna be a big quilt, but well, when i was almost to finish to sew all the blocks i just realized that i needed one more block... darn! just one! so i made one with some fabric that my sister had there and... well, it didn't match, the measures are smaller (funny, i just took the measures of one of the blocks) so, is a quilt in progress, i do really hope to finish it soon and then... finish another quilt that i've got on progress! i'm a case, i know...