here we go again

 A week in curated photos, i mean, i'm back, blogging and writing after a long break with you guys, (not actually you, but with my blog..), find some goodie days to spend outside, is windy, warm already and as a visual collector, well, i enjoy reflected shadows in everywhere... This past months was kinda a whirl, gotta settle myself to write and update... gotta paint a little bit more this year and let myself flow with things that i cannot control outside of myself, spend more time doing the thing that i procrastinate such courses, workshop, therapy and else... keep enjoying this year! wish you a fun, wild and lovely 2023..

home is...

 almost two years since covid started, life changed us in different ways, i feel like i've been learning a lot and still a way to go to stay learning, caring, loving, teaching, helping, changing, healing in so many ways
Two years and so and i feel so grateful for a lot of things, for my mom and dad, my family, friends, work, health and home..
i'm growing and learning and also makes me feel so overwhelmed, new places, new people and situations but i feel so lucky to have a home to come back... 
home is a refugee, a place to rebuilt myself, a cozy area to growth so i'm gonna fill it up with joy, love, happiness and gratitud

life lately...

i've been staying in home for vacation, i can't say it was just leisure, i've been working on my paintings, cleaning, declutter, painting walls and else... this is my last week before to start classes again, is kinda scary going back to presencial classes after all this distance and virtual classes... i already got my vaccine although i feel secure with it i'm still taking a lot of vitamins!!
Even when i adore to stay more time at home i've got to go back, this are my fav captures lately and yes! i used a nice vintage filter for this pics cuz i love vivid and bright colors but why not a different thing?
 August has been kind to me...

soon i'll move

 There is a place that waits for me... There is a place i've been working on for it... There is a place that be back alive again... There is a place where i'll be work on... There is a place that will be a refugee... There is a place where soon i'll call home...
I've been working quite hard this last 5 years and soon i'll see some reward... my parents helps me a lot but the effort and hard work is done by me.. i just bought a place... is still in progress, i couldn't do it without them, i couldn't do it without my siblings, i couldn't do it without my friends...
Almost 4 years ago, after been kicked out from a place, literally to the street, i went back to my parents house, dealing with depression, low selfsteem and heartbroken i put a goal (was several goals actually) 
Rebuilding myself is one of the hardest work i have ever been doing... so wish me luck, wish me the best, send good vibes, and send love because i already started...

a Farewell

So i guess all this social distance and the pandemic situation put me kinda in a sensitive mood, times don't move slow although some days it feels like it goes faster than ever. I adopted Lenteja (Lentil) when was just a puppy, my parents refused for several reason but have you seen those bright eyes?!. Dad had a partner to take a nap, Mom had her for a excuse for short walks in the streets. Lenteja had a very nervous personality but she was always feel relax in our company. Was a very difficult decision to say her good bye, she was ill and had arthritis in her hips and legs, i feel so bad to see her struggle... please please cuddle your pet, share moments and they always gonna be the best company and partner you'll ever had!

 

thanks museums...

I should it go more often to the museums.. i say it to myself quite often but then... routine, errands, weekends must be the days to plan a visit to the museums but then, i guess is that lately my daily basis are quite full... i split myself in two jobs, my time to keep painting, reading, having family time, hobbies.... but then, a visit to the museum reminds me why i should keep working on my art, encourage myself and my friends to keep creating and making art.... 

oh boy....

So, how i overcome my fears, project what i love and what i like over my own insecurity... in front of a bunch of kiddos and teenagers... well.... i just do the best on me and the best on what i know... i've got to say, i get so easily get frustrated when things are not going over the direction or the way i wanted to go, i guess i may take things so strict and i guess that is fine, when strict is just about me but i can't demand it in the same way when is about other.. so i guess i'm gonna lose a lil bit just for the kiddos, just for the fun and the learning...

This year and this job will be to me a challenge and i hope to have so much fun over my kranky mood and personality... wish me luck with my kiddos and teens....

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i wish i could express way much better what i feel, my thoughts... i wish that i can keep still and strong... i wish i can hold some emotions better than other... i wish i could write down my emotions... i wish i could put it down in poetry... but that will be not me.... i guess i was avoiding to write here for so long... there was a reason, a strong reason...

March month was a hard, difficult month... was a month that gather my family together... that also makes me realize the value of the presence or absence of people...

time won't back, neither time or people... lately i feel so attached to sunsets and sunrises... i'll keep the best of it...

thanks for reading..

my workshop

How can i explain that everytime that i'm on my workshop eventually i realized that may probably the workshop is also for me, like if i was another kid learning there too... This year my workshop was pretty cool, based on Roald Dahl, J.K. Rowling and Diana Wynne Jones books.. about what? well, basic and mostly on spells, invocations, potions and rhymes... is a funny mix but! it was awesome... why?! well, me and my very idealistic things about how to make a spell or invocation in order to get something but specially ask for something in specific... 

i told to the kids that it is not the same ask for good luck if you don't said specific to what... is not the same have a good luck in the school or while playing or while you walk on the street so if you ask for good luck you better let clear to what or when or how... 

i had a great time tho, even when one day i just get terrible sick, i was food poisoning but don't care, wasn't a great year for my health but i had a great time there...

at the end of my workshop i was totally speaking everything with rhymes... spanish rhymes aren't the easiest but kiddos nailed pretty good tho!!

Love will be the reason

I meet Julie when i was a teenager, we became so close and share the same sense of humor, interests and dunno i guess our friendship matches because... i guess some friendships can last...
We went to the same high school, different classes and even had a little rough time because we were in love of the same guy hahaha....

So college was a different story, we barely seen each other but also life put our friendship back, we give each other the update of our lives while we were in college and after that ... we saw again to talk about our lives and jobs and loves and else
Then we worked together for the book fair, we make a team! we were like partners in crime!!
Did i already told you that she was roommate of my brother?! well they were and they also they hang out well...
So yesterday was her wedding and i couldn't be more happy for her! she get married with a wonderful women and i'm so proud for them!

so i guess friendship can be like that, they can last and change or evolve in something always better and great

oh me oh my...

i've been really busy lately!! oh me, oh my..! can't complain about that.. i've been sewing like maniac, spending time working outside, spare my time between working and else i barely had time for taking deep breath and put myself down working on my paintings... yes, i had 3 exhibitions almost in row... planing my workshop and taking classes and also workshops... yes, i love to be in workshop as a student! is quite nice! i really really enjoy taking classes! i won't stop doing it, i'll should take more and more... my last courses was about making soaps, having a herb garden and i'm planing more and more... yasss i miss school...! did i mention that i had a really nasty flu? well i was under medication and i feel so much better now... plans ahead?! what do you expect!? of course more work and classes and workshop... wish me luck!!

PS i barely could finish the books i'll use for my workshop in the international book fair... oh me, oh my...!

just a thought...

I've been busy, busy like a crazy, busy like a bee!! not so long ago i had a horrible panic attack or a breakdown or both... i couldn't handle it so i call a friend to help me out and she did... i'm doing pretty good and pretty well right now (although i felt really crashed tho..!) then after, i was thinking what makes me feel that way, in that day, in that moment, i think that i may already know what... so is like that 2 ways, or face it again so i can grab the bull by the horns or avoid it... then this is my thought, not so long ago i was really anxious to stay busy and really busy so i can stay awake and away of some feelings and here i am with that, except that i forgot to ask also for another things... if you really wish something, ask for it but also don't for get for more tools or ask for some other things! otherwise you'll be so overwhelmed like me...!

the washi tape..

I can't help to have an irresistible attraction to cute, pastel, little things! i really can't help it... i guess is my crafter personality or maybe is because is totally eye candy to me this things... (just a justification that i spend some cash on this goodies..) not so selfish at all, i shared this goodies to my sister and some bff and of course they loved!!!

i should i would surround myself with things and thoughts that i like and love... do the same to you my dears! you won't regret it...

oh dear, a quilt...

One of my besties is getting married in October, she already send me the invitation, and i'm saving the date for.... So we meet when we were 14 years old, we were big fan of the same cartoons, music and share the same sense of humor, we love the same things and hate the same things, even when we were in high school, we weren't in the same classroom we tried to keep closed and then.. we had a big crush for the same guy (sounds like a teenage movie...) so we kinda split, and after all the guy was a jerk.. i went to art school in college and she was switching from one career to finally become a chef... now we hung out, she became roomie and friend of my brother some years ago and now she's getting married!! so this is my task, what should i gift her in this very special day..??
and the answer is a quilt, big enough to cover a couple... and the pattern? i kinda invented, i like to improvise with what i've got and this past days i've been sewing all day long (thank you so much vacations!!)  i doooo really hope to finish it before October considering that i've got other things to do..! God bless my mess right now!
and of course, she doesn't know about this quilt, i barely doubt that she's gonna sneak around here to see what i've been doing lately...

lately...

i know, i've been far from my blog lately, but i do have a justification! i've been working on some paintings and draws for an exhibition... i want it to work on new pieces just because, well, just because... and i barely been doing something else than work on that i finished this past weekend and this week i had a great time with the rest of the artist that they do a magnificent art and work with this exhibition... so happy to be part of it...
so here's a little peek of this exhibition (the best part is that the opening will be the March 8th!!)

outdoors is for...

Lately i've been hanging out with a new friends and people who had the same (or similar) interest like me, paint landscapes and the cool thing is that we been together and going to public places to make studies, draws at outdoors and seriously is a very relaxing activity, i really really miss to do this, why i didn't do this before? i mean, i've been hanging out alone and never came to my mind to do this in different places and areas!! i went to the beach, forest and well, why i didn't do it? i guess i'm very shy or insecure, i try to carry a notebook to write ideas that pop up in my mind but well, is nice to hang out with friends and people.. 
anyway, my paintings and draws are quite simple, i guess i need to practice and do this more often and leave my shy attitude behind (if you do this, for sure you would have people that may probably approach you to see what are you painting...) anyway... this are a few views and some sketches....