here i go again...

Recently i just found out that some of my fav artist used to make studies of a particular image, object previous to it's artwork, at the moment when i see it in books or museums the artwork didn't make any sense of why they do this and not going straight to the canvas..?? but is more like the way they can work in this and reducing and exploring the possibilities of it prior to paint it, and yes, i used to thought that was a useless idea but is not, is really not, so i was thinking to work on some canvas, but i need to first have an idea of how some object would work on it, like colors, light and else... well, this is what i've been doing lately as part of my artworks.... 

Liebre Blanca

Exhibit my paintings and my art is a mix between fear and joy, is a weird mix, but i seriously feel like showing my thoughts and my feelings right straight naked in front of people with of course all the judgement of what i do and what i am... it suppose to give me strength and stay fearless but is still this sensation of panic... i told to my self that if i made a solo exhibition i rather prefer not to go to the opening because this overwhelming sensation and feeling to be in front of people explaining myself my creative process and all this kind of justifications that totally makes me feel in panic... before this exhibition closure, i was invited and with other girl (because it was just femme art..) i kinda explain myself my artworks, and it wasn't that bad although was just a few group... (even with that i was trying not to push the panic button..) i guess that i need to face this fear more often tho.... 

holidays....

i could lie if i told you that i can't remember when was the last time that i went to Isla Mujeres... but actually i do remember, it was just sibling trip, hanging out in the beach and we had a very badly sun burn here, the town was so changed since that last time... so i went back with my family and kiddos, to spend some days there, and well yes, nothing was the same but the beach and the waves was pretty the same... a wonderful nature! weather was perfect, everyday we were checking weather news and although it could be rainy and cloudy but it wasn't at all..
My nephews and nieces are bigger and gorgeous and well, what can i say about that... is just life! i would love to go back, i would love to travel more often and have this great time, forget all my problems and living life like that.... i just wish that...